The opportunity to know the Awareness Meditation was introduced by one of my best friends when I was talking about some issues at work to her.
I was experiencing physical symptoms such as breathing difficulties by going through a complicated relationship with my boss through everyday work. I had an extreme hatred towards her, however, trying to solve without quitting the job. I had the feeling that I would face a similar situation even if I could quit and find a new job. I was desperate to see the way out.
The timing was perfect to start Self Realization Course Awareness Meditation to find the answers. I learned the energy resonance theory and the experiment of the sound resonance by the teacher’s piano, which was a fascinating discovery. Then I discovered the five elements of the universe, Karma, the Energy flow, breathing importance and mechanism inside of us, which I wanted to know the most. By recognising those made me very easy to understand the invisible energy part of us, and the reason why I felt mental and physical difficulties.
I started having awareness. I realised that I was too busy self-defending. I understood the meaning of “How you see other people is a reflection of how you see yourself”. I have been self-centred and thinking my conveniences all the time. I believed that I have deep faith, but it was not deep enough. I had doubt, too much precaution and expected returns all the time. My mind was also clouded to recognise the truth of what was going on and bothered by being a victim all the time. I was very embarrassed when I realised all of that.
All that I needed to do with this awareness is only observe and let go without any judgements, which I presume the most challenging part. I couldn’t stop judging myself. However, the teacher navigated me easily to observe myself just the way I was which “the judgmental self” was before observing the matters that I listed. The simple solution as she named “observe the blind spot” worked very well.
After finishing the course, many realisations started popping up in my mind and those inspirations letting me say “Oh yes! It was so”! As the clouded mind is getting clear, I had no longer having negative feelings towards the difficult boss instead feeling appreciation to her. Then our relationship became so much better. The physical condition recovered well, and my breathing difficulties eased. My mind felt as light as a feather. The workplace has wholly changed its environment, and it became a comfortable place.
Gradually knowing what I was looking for then unnecessary decoration around my mind fell off. I felt like I was reborn then everything started flowing naturally as it should be. Finally, I received an excellent opportunity to meet the master Yogmataji. I have gratitude to my friend who introduced me to the course teacher, and I much appreciate the teacher who allowed me to reach the master Yogmataji.
Thanks to the universe, I finally found what I was really looking for. I will continue meditation every day and keep pursuing the universal truth because the awareness meditation merges and unite everything into oneness.
I wish for many of your peace in mind and unconditional true happiness through the meditation.